Been in the hospital for a few days because Anya's amniotic fluid was dangerously low. I was on IV fluid for 3 days, had 2 iron infusions, and 2 steroid shots. Luckily the fluid came up and they allowed me to go home on moderate bed rest. I was terrified because if the fluid didn't come up then the baby was at a high risk for being stillborn. They were talking about a c-section and I'm only at 24 weeks! Babies that young don't do very well outside the womb! The steroids they gave me were to boost her lungs just in case she had to be born. All along we assumed she'd be early for one reason or another. We were hoping for 36 weeks (8 months). I hope she does make it that long but with this scare I'm terribly afraid I'm going to have a very sick and dangerously premature baby on my hands.
I keep thinking, "I've done this to her. To keep me alive I've risked her life!" That's because the low fluid could be due to my Herceptin treatments. But my ob wasn't so sure. It's been so hot in Seattle and I wasn't drinking like I should so she thinks that was a major contributor, especially since the fluids did come back up after constant IVs and a few days in an air-conditioned hospital room.
So now I rest as much as I can, which makes me feel useless and pathetic. I'm still wilting in the sticky heat although the temp has come down out of the hundreds! Trying to drink often, but it makes me feel uncomfortable to be that full of liquid all the time. Grrr! But I'll do whatever I must to keep her happy and healthy inside me.
I have an appointment to talk to my onc about postponing my next Herceptin treatment for a few weeks. My next treatment isn't until mid-Aug, and if I can postpone it until Sept, then I'll be at 30 weeks and the baby would have a much better (although not great) shot at surviving if she has to come out early.
In addition to bed rest (so most of my calories and fluid goes to her) they want me to eat a ton more calories because if she does come early she'll be better off if she's a good size. Nutritionists came by to talk to me in the hospital and were joking that they don't often advise people on how to eat more calories.
I'm one very worried momma right now! I keep resting my hands on my stomach hoping she's okay.
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Dear Kim
I've read your whole story with interest. I admire your strength, compassion, and intelligence so much. I thought your post on being a 'spermulator' was very funny. I have been accused of being that too but of course, not in those words. I have a daughter who is 30 and pregnant (although she soon won't be as the the due date is coming up)and I have triple negative BC, which hopefully is gone but one never knows. When I think how unfair it is that I have it, I read about young women such as yourself that are going through so much and I tell myself, stop your whining. I hope for the best for your dear Anya and look forward to hearing details of her birth and growth.
Thanks Sue. I appreciate you taking the time to read my blog and make a comment. I hope your daughter has a prefect delivery and the baby is happy and healthy. :)
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